I’m back! I had a wonderful experience playing The Cat in Seussical. For me it was an experience in embodying being alive, playful, mischievous, and being connected to the power of child-like imagination and possibility. The role also filled my life to the brim, which was a valuable experience of another kind.
Since the show ended I’ve been enjoying having more empty space and rejuvenating my practice of generating spaciousness in my life. My practice involves many modalities, including Contemplative Movement, Feldenkris, Tai chi, Continuum, Zapchen, Somatic Respiratory Integration, prayer and meditation. It doesn’t matter what I’m doing, as long as it supports me to move towards presence, awareness and being the witness of my mind rather than it’s puppet.
What I notice as I move into this space is that conversations bubble up from my mind that address areas of my life where I’m currently feeling resistance or incompleteness. Sometimes a situation or event will arise and the process of witnessing it that one time will be enough to allow it to be integrated. Other times the same situation will keep rising up in the empty space. This is a good sign to me that I might be needing to step in further by having a conversation, taking an action, or renewing an intent. The rising up acts like a compass, pointing me in the direction of my unfolding path of wholeness.
This week what arose was a situation with a client who is currently on a break from coaching, but whom I have been spending time and energy thinking about and emailing regarding our coaching and a request of hers. What hit me in that moment of contemplation was that I had been resisting and resenting these exchanges because I had been holding it as though “I shouldn’t have to be involved in these conversations while we’re on break”. As soon as I could see this, I immediately saw through this lie, and a miraculous spaciousness occurred. If I’m leaking power by holding onto my should, then what there is to do is to step into this further and have a conversation that supports clarity, spaciousness, and powerful choice!
My “should” vanished into thin air as my intent became clear and my willingness and capacity expanded exponentially. I can choose to add power and possibility to MY life by following through on my deepest intent. Now that’s a no brainer. For me this process is similar to what happens in coaching; we get out of the mode of “figuring it out”, clear ourselves of any debris getting in the way of our deepest intent, and take action from a place of clarity and ease.
How are you in relationship to thoughts that arise from places of fear, resistance or compulsion? How do you cultivate spaciousness in your life? What is rising up for you these days when you sit as the witness of your mind?
Happy Hollandaise!
Love
Todd.
